I’ve decided that my biggest fear is growing up. I don’t want to wake up one day and not remember anything. I don’t want memories of the distant past to gradually fade behind a curtain to a place in my mind that I won’t be able to reach anymore. I don’t want to not remember how it feels like to be a little girl, or forget the names of all my friends. But I think that’s what time is. Time robs you of everything, at one point in your life.
You aren’t there for me the way you used to be. We don’t talk, text like we used to. We don’t have those funny inside jokes between us anymore. Those endless talks about nothing at all hardly exist anymore. Something’s changing, and I can’t tell if it’s you or me.
You make me smile, you make me happy. I don’t know what’s so special about you, but I feel like I can be my complete self around you and you’d accept me for who I am. I can laugh uncontrollably and you wouldn’t mind. I can repeat the silliest things constantly and you wouldn’t become annoyed. I like talking to you.
